AMANDA PE!

oh God, why

2010-06-10T23:07:00.000-07:00

I thought wad I did was right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
but that road brought me here
So I put up a fight, and told you how to help me
Now just when I've given up,
the truth is coming clear

YOU KNOW BETTER THAN I
YOU KNOW THE WAY
I'VE LET GO THE NEED TO KNOW WHY
FOR YOU KNOW BETTER THAN I
-Joseph, King of dreams

2 is better than 1

2010-05-30T12:03:00.002-07:00

wad makes two better than one?

the talking? the vibes? the excitement? heart beating extremely fast? sweaty palms? saying things that dont make sense? same dreams and interests? not being able to live without each other? telepathy?

as much as I would like to think that two is better than one, i think more than 2 is EVEN BETTER than "two is better than one". but then they'll all leave you someday, when they realise that 2 is better than one, not more than two. they have found their 1, when is it gg to be yours?

wad makes two become one?

the talking? the vibes? the excitement? heart beating extrememly fast? sweaty palms? saying things that dont make sense? not being able to live without each other? telepathy? same dreams and interests?seeing the ppl around me get attached and fall so madly in love with each other (some very insanely, some still staying quite sane, thankfully) makes me feel very... i dunno, maybe kinda left out. but I dunno what I've actually missed. the movies? the meals tgt? whining to someone? saving up little events of my day to tell you in the night? that is what you call love?

maybe I am too young to talk about true love, oh what do I know when I'm only sixteen? hmmm, but i know enough to say that more than two is better than one.

family.cell.netballers.jeremy auston jasper bala lobbie khanliang. <3

whos first?

2010-04-28T05:24:00.000-07:00

"cux that's wad you wanted, and i got it for you"

absolut meltz baby. hahaha (L)

replaced.

2010-04-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

sighh.

two more weeks to go, i'm gna make it. work it, make it, do it, makes us harder better faster stronger.

chinese makes me ):

2010-04-06T06:41:00.000-07:00

you know, i have like tingxie almost every chinese lesson now and its really stressing me out ): i havent done so much chinese homework in my life!! my head is about to explode from the millions and millions of chinese words stuck inside. oh goodness me. i cant think. i just need to treat myself to a buffet hhahaha

so anw, timetable for myes coming out tmr!! :) i am kinda excited, considering the fact that its gg to be the first time i get to really prove myself after all that has happened. i hope i am ready for it :) oh God, just let me find the motivation to get my ass to school again, please.

okay nonsense aside, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHANLIANG LOVE!! <3

write all the ppl i meltz in 2469756 books

2010-03-31T06:21:00.000-07:00

bala thinks i shld do that when i was complaining to him about how nobody ever returns my meltz for them one day. he says its cux i meltz too much the ppl lost track and he thinks writing a book about the ppl i meltz can help me earn some money in future. haha.

so anw, i've been thinking about marriage and the whole courtship before marriage thing very often these few days, before i go to bed, during assembly, when i have nothing to do, when school's a bore and i cant absorb anything anymore, on the bus, when i bathe. its like i cant get the matter out of my head and its kinda disturbing cux i think of the really nice stuff sometimes and the worst case scenario too. funny how i can think so much and when its time to think during exams, nothing comes out.

so many stuff have happened recently and my views on marriage and "happily ever after" has definitely changed. i dont blame you but you made reality really really clear to me. and i dont wna see you cry anymore. knowing that when i leave, you're gg to cry yourself to sleep, when we're not w you, youre gg to let your thoughts run wild, knwing that the things you do in the day is just to show us that youre still strong but i know youre crumbling, really breaking apart deep inside. i know it cux i can feel it and cux i love you.

and now, because i love you, i am gg to be strong, gg to fight this battle w you, gg to do whatever it takes to make you proud of me, gg to study like mad so i can earn enough to make sure you'll never ever have to suffer again.

HAPPY 54TH FOUNDER'S DAY!

2010-03-24T06:20:00.000-07:00

so its founder's day once again and nobody got hyped up, except me ): but then again wad's there to hyped up about when there's not much of a celebration. when there's no performance and there are lessons. oh well. anyhow, HAPPY FOUNDER'S DAY!!!!!

i just realised how fast time flies, the ISH has already been opened for a year and tyby was a year ago ): ah, so fast. last year was much better, we get to come school later and we had a walkaton and there was tyby. oh how i miss 2009.

its gg to be my last year celebrating founder's day w the guys and lobbs and chew and nt sitting w them today totally made sitting in the hall for 2 hours worse. couldnt make noise when they congratulated bala for making it to the YOG squad and when the guest of honour said number seven (L) is such an awesome player. and nobody wanted to take peektures to remember this very special 54th founder's day. sigh. so i went to 4AB to snap pictures and forced everyone to smile and pose and we decided to celebrate founder's day by ourselves by gg to have lunch tgt and walking aimlessly around tampines. haha.

i am gg to miss you guys quite alot ): gna miss bumping into you ppl while changing classes, gg to miss hearing "EH PEEEESAI!!"echo through the corridor and in the canteen, gna miss hearing your childish laughter and ridiculous nonsense, gg to miss the senseless noise we make, gna miss being able to find a spot in the canteen where i can sit and feel a sense of belonging, gg to miss seeing barley shoot across my face during recess, gg to miss getting frustrated when you guys just cant seem to make a decision as to where to go for lunch/dinner/supper, gg to miss hearing you guys shout and play catching in the canteen, gg to miss gg to the stadium and seeing all of you there, gg to miss your being in AH.

and the fact that i am gg to be all alone next year sucks

2010-03-17T09:15:00.000-07:00

did i tell you how much i hate indecisive ppl? like srsly. just make up your mind and do wads right. HOW DIFFICULT CAN THAT GET.

i'll love you till the end

2009-10-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

oh, forget to mention that that song's stuck in my head and i'm sure once neek teaches me how to play the guitar, i'll play that song to everybody!!!!!!

"we win because we're the strongest of all the feifeis" :-D

2009-10-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

so the mini olympics ended today and yes, we lost to basketball ): hahah AGAIN! but it was fun and we lost happily to them :) yes yes cheryl boh, silver also not say very bad! hahaha. managed to convince yingz that discus is not the fat sport and that shot pun is the fat sport so she can happily go join discus and win a medal for netball! yay! and i got first for shot pun! yupp, the "fat sport". hahaha it wasn't that bad lah really, m just glad that i won :) jeremy was super cute about it.

he said,
"you know, shot pun is the feifei sport but i will win because i am the strongest of all the feifeis muahahahah"

cheerleading was, as usual, impromtu but as awesome as ever! haha, i think we did not bad for a cheer that was made up about half an hour before the competition haha. good job elizabeth :) and to all the juniors for being so enthusiastic about it yay! :-D

its doomsday tmr, sigh. i hope i'm ready for it.

stuff ourselves silly! :-D

2009-10-19T08:03:00.000-07:00

been eating quite alot these few days! ):

me: eh you know these few days i really eat damn alot! wah lao, i think i put on 10 kg over the past 3 days you know!

auston: yeah right, you everyday also eat alot, don't act! hahahahahahaha

me: i am serious!! -.-

on saturday, i went for a buffet with my family to celebrate kimberly's birthday, we ate alot alot alot, all the tempura, sashimi and desserts, after that, we went to swensens to eat ice-cream and had a big supper at my place at night. goodness me, bet we could feed an entire country with the food we ate haha.

on sunday, had an extremely heavy breakfast before going to church and after a very short cell, ate a plate of fried rice and had 5 siew mais and alot alot of baos while waiting for mission trip meeting to start haha. and went to meet the claire and serene at ion to eat dinner. when i came back, dad told me there was food, so i went to eat again. omg, wad a glutton..

today! woke up at 1130 cux godpa called and told me he was going to get lunch for the four of us, awww. and he came at 2 o'clock and got alot of food! so after my super late lunch, i ate bao again cux godpa bought like 3 bags full of it! going to vomit if i see a bao again... ): then met th guys for dinner at cartel. oh, never ate so much in my entire life ):

now i am fatter than usual and i can't stand myself. ugh. but i am happy cux i ate alot of good food :) yipeee! I PROMISE TO GO ON A DIET SOON! well.. soon enough hahaha.

a friend for 78727587875 years

2009-10-16T07:06:00.001-07:00

and you'll make it through too! you'll have my cakes to accompany you :)

julie and julia

2009-10-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

so.. once again, seow, thai, shaun and me attempted to sneak into an NC 16 movie, and unlike the previous times, we failed terribly haha. oh we had marcus along with us too! its super hard to sneak in at century so we gave up and watched julie and julia instead. it was okayy, make me wna cook cook cook. i liked the show :) the show wasn't that bad at all but the rest were dozing off and couldn't stop complaining haha oh well.

captain's ball was totally awesome, played with badminton and wushu and won both. but both cca did very well, yay good job! :) so we're into the finals! and like every year, we're meeting the basketballers! haha, prepare to get owned man! hahaha. the final's next tuesday and all the field events too. kinda anticipating it but then again, training's going to start on tuesday and ugh, i'm just not really to go back to train. then again, the thought of wanting to get top four... and these little people that motivates me to do better <3

we'll make it through :) eastzonetopfour2010 :-D

(500) days of SUMMER/AUTUMN/SPRING/WINTER, you choose.

2009-10-15T07:56:00.000-07:00

oh yeahhh man! the exams are finally over and hope the happiness last till next year :) *cross fingers

eoys totally drained me out, staying up till almost two everyday or waking up as early as four in the morning to chiong and make sure that i graduate on Anglican High's 50th graduation ceremony instead of the 51st. thank God for the many many messages that got me through all this bullshit. i hope i make it. sighh

so after attending the seniors' graduation ceremony, the netballers went to swensens to reward ourselves for all the hardwork yay! :) ate the usual stuff and clarice gave everybody a little bit of her already very little eggs. then rushed to meet the guys and lobbchewboh to watch (500) days of summer. the movie was kinda cute, but argh, the ending sucked. tom didn't end up with summer and went to date autumn instead LOL. i wna be spring so that the super cute guy lead will date me soon hahahaha. yay!! haha

mini olympics tomorrow and netball will own again! :) WATCH US BASKETBALL!! no chance for you lobbchewboh! haha.

i found a new love! :) Justin Bieber, the guy who sang "one time". ahhhhh so cute and he's only 15 years old!! WAHHHHHHH damn cute can't stand it hahahahahah

"your world, is my world
my fight is your fight
my breath is your breath
and your heart.

youre my one love, my one heart, my one life for sure."

i love you forever, forever is over

2009-10-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

cause just on sip, would make me sick.

chem SPA

2009-09-24T04:40:00.000-07:00

screwed up my olevel chem SPA = officially screwed chem.

paper one tmr, bring it on. i'm ready :)

MY lonely september ):

2009-09-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do.
Tryin' to think of something,
Anything just to keep me of thinking of you

But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close
And share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love,
But I did
And you didn't mean to love me back,
But I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me

You know the holidays are coming up
And I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
Will just kill me if I'm on my own

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
We just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have
One more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with
This old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's
Not getting me very far

I look around my room and everything
I see reminds me of
YOU
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand,
We've got nothing left to prove.

Ohhhhhhhhhh

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close
And share what we did

And I didn't mean to fall in love,
But I did
And you didn't mean to love me back,
But I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then...
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills..
The way that I kiss

And I didn't mean to fall in love,
But I did...
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did..

Don't say you did love me back
'cause you know you did...
No, you didn't mean to love me back...
But you did.

PESS! :)

2009-09-15T04:46:00.000-07:00

so! pess was on sunday and we totally had an awesome time! at least we got to 2nd round and only lost to bock's team by a little bit! YAY, sure there's hope for us to get top four next year! YIPPEEEE! :)

pess brings back terrible memories. lots of stuff happened after pess last year and i can't seem to stop myself from thinking about it ): not good, ying's going to kill me if she knows wad i am thinking about hahaha.

cld have been happy now but i ruined it, saying things i didn't mean and threw it all away and only realised how much i wanted it back after it was gone. knw there's no point thinking about it now, i mean six months has passed and feeling upset and regretting it, is not going to make anything better.

oh wells, i still think of you.

and what I wouldn't give to have just one more chance tonight...

boys in pretty white skirts <3

2009-09-01T21:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
and be yourself day! :)

thought the guys in 3b were totally sporting to wear skirts for the whole day just so that we'll have a day to remember. teachers' day was super awesome! :) enjoyed giving all the teachers the muffins we baked. hahah maybe cos its been a long time since i gave a teacher a teachers' day present, when i should have since i'm such a terrible student, slow in getting stuff and forever dozing off in class haha. now i'm happy! and happy to see the seniors again too :)

hope the rest of the year gets better! :)

i miss you mama

2009-08-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

i like spending time together, enjoying tubs of b and j's and haagen daaz and talking about what we used to play and do and eat. the things may sound stupid and painful, like the power rangers game but i would love going back in time to do those lovely stuff again.

wished someone wld call the police to tell them mama was opening an illegal childcare, wished being able to run to a table full of food at three o'clock everyday, wished we can laugh at the silly things we do again like samsam calling the police when we wanted to call his mum, wished we can run around and play hide and seek again, wished you were still here to call all of us when you only wanted to call jeremy, wished you were still here to cook maggie mee and make milo for us at 3, wished you were still here to run after us with the cane when we were naughty, wished we cld still laugh with you, and ran into your arms when we got bullied, wished you waited for us one last time before you went away.

i miss you mama, and i wish you were back in our lives again.. ):

SHAKE SINGAPORE! :)

2009-08-11T07:17:00.000-07:00

"..oh look here! its the world ooohhh. LOOK! its Singapore! :) now pick Singapore up and SHAKE SINGAPORE! WHOAAAAAAAAAAA!!"

what do you see?

2009-08-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! :D:D

Singapore's 44! :) and i spent her birthday playing L4D with the cell guys and marcus ast peace center after church. thank god training was cancelled :) seow's damn patient i swear! taught me how to use the controls and healed, protected and saved me. awwww... so sweet! <333 haha

rushed to Sunhaven after that and had a bbq and met this totally weird security guard, he was drunk and i dunno wad, weird!! yeah, spot the irony, i thought a security guard was supposed to make you feel secured, he ended up making me, kimberly and jeslyn totally :O **bite nails now.

i thought that this year's celebration in school totally sucked! with so little national day songs and THERE WAS NO PARADE! can you believe it! wad's a national day celebration without a parade man! but thank god they had a very short flag bearing march (or whatever you UG ppl call it! i am so sorry) and a super hot yangwei and cute sean totally made up for it haha.

the tree planting ceremony, as usual, was really boring and we decided to go back to class to slack :) and here's the climax! AHS got give national day gift!!! omg so exciting haha, its a transparent pencil case approved for examinations, NOW HOW COOL IS THAT?! :O haha i think its damn cool :) okay enough nonsense.

feel really patriotic this year, not sure why but.. i dunno. there are doubts too of course, like after the stuff ms fadzilla said during history. but for now, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :) may you prosper and hopefully we'll all have free healthcare soon!

2009-07-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

ayg ended ): feels really crappy to know it ended ): oh well! at least i'm part of singapore's history!

chewy said, we are historical ppl, we did tyby this year and volunteered for ayg! how cool is that?! haha, anw, ayg has been a really awesome experience, getting to meet hot ppl haha, like japan's no5! <3333

ayg was totally cool! i dunno why but it kinda feels empty now that its over and you realise that you're never gonna see these ppl again, and its pretty sad to know that our paths are never gonna cross again. emo emo emoooooooo..... ): but i'm glad that we're still talking about ayg and it seems like ayg has made an extremely huge difference in our lives. fujioka, park dj, the s'pore players and also the other hot basketball girls that our guys are still very much in love with.

and i know i am sure to miss special someone! and because of you, ayg was a whole lot more special. i will miss you alot alot alot alot! :) i'm sure.

2009-06-23T07:11:00.000-07:00

no school yayyeeeee haha so we get the normal holidays + an extra week cos of ayg. YIPEEE! but there's e-learning and i think e-learning totally sucks ): arghhhh haha but at least i get to wake up late and still have time to bake muffins and cookies yay! haha

watched drag me to hell today with ying! wahh super scary haha, i think tanying is incredibly brave :) haha, wna watch orphan soon!!!!! then ate with claire and serene when we were supposed to catch ghosts of girlfriends past.

we went to the beach today too, although i had lots of fun being with them, taking jumpshots and "playing with the water". can't help but got reminded of the places i've been today.. aiyah sian haha.

anw! we managed to convince claire to take neoprints with us today, omg so proud of myself hahah, but we really have to keep to our promise this time ): sigh. no more fun HAHAHA. got lots of pictures, there're up on fb but i'll try to post them here if i can! haha super tired alr.

goodnight! i miss you.

2009-06-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

i loveeeee touch rug, hmm. or maybe its just the ppl i was playing with :) hmmmmm.

2009-06-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

had two stayovers in a week, i am super tired.

2009-06-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

YAY! new holiday week :) glad this week is not going to be as hectic as last week! thank goodnesss :)

hmmm, went for the ayg trial on sunday and it was really fun but tiring, i mopped the floor like 35686965 times! oh well, at least i managed to see some cool stuff, like the ribena blackcurrent look alike (HAHAHAHA really look like!) and barney the purple dinosuar, except this time, barney wasn't so purple ): and barney ask me to hurry up mop floor ): so kids, barney is not very nice when he's not purple but still have pretty good dance moves :) HAHAHA. there was dj hutch from 91.3 and cheerleaders from s'pore slingers and the s'pore slingers mascot :) haha.

lobs: eh, the cheerleaders look like your fillipino maids not?
me: HAHAHAHAHAHA YAH YAH YAH!!

anw anw, both our girls and our guys won so yay! bala's going to treat me to a good supper :) yayyyyy! oh.. poor bob ): hahah, and i got a new favourite number! numberrrrrr 4 <3 hot stuff really! :)

i got pictures i got pictures!!!

srsly dunno wad yingzz is doing haha

unglam shot, LOOK AT CLAIRE! haha!tanying's turn to smile with teeth, my turn to smile like an ahlian haha

yingzzz totally inspired this shot!

stupid ppl, don't want to take with flash ): we end up looking freaky... ):

claire and yingzzz say i look like an ahlian and when i sit down i look like small girl. huayu say i look like pikachu ): sadddddddd

i still wna go to the zoo, my hols won't be complete without a trip to the zoo. please please please, somebody, anybody!!!! say you wna take me out to the zoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

2009-06-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

the holidays finally started! :D:D:D but it feels nothing like its supposed to be, i've been going to school everyday and waking up at unearthly hours ): suckssssss. and it feels terrbily weird not seeing claire serene yingzzz and clarice everyday ): (please claire, stop grinning to yourself haha)

so! we finally got our photo frames! (: yipeeeeee! and i really loved the one clarice made for me,

although she insists its ugly and plain (PURPLE!!<333) . aiyah, typical clarice haha. i hope yingzzz liked the one i made for her! you told me you like gold so i just spam the whole thing with gold glitter haha, i hope you liked it :) and also the stones that fell out, sorry! ):

went back to school on monday for chem supp then went to dover to meet justin for tuition! it was super cool! we had tuition by the swimming pool cos i was getting soooooo sleeppppyyyy haha. went to meet the guys and kelyn after tuition to get xiaobai's present and shoes. then jasper decided to try on a tennis skirt =.= haha, he looked quite ridiculous but it was funny :)

trained on tuesday and thursday, jumped alot! i think we will all have terrible muscle cramps ): oh well, at least i got to touch the ceiling yipeeeeee! :) packed my entire room on weds, so proud of myself :) haha, but wednesday ended really horribly ): argh..

we had ayg training ytd! was really boring, jasper said i fell asleep for an hour, i swear it didn't felt that long! but the food was really good! loved the cheesecake :) haha, elizabeth literally took the whole tray! it was fun though, telling elizabeth and rochelle stories and them getting so amazed by it haha. been spending lotsssss of time with yingzzz these few days i realised haha, sorry i make you wait all the time! ): and claire too lol.

there ayg trial run tmr, so exciting!!!! :) haha i am a mop kid, so cool haha yay! can hardly wait but gotta wake up really early again.... this is so tiring... ): i am so sorry this post is so wordy ): i'll remember to post more pictures next time! :) i need someone to go to the zoo with, desperately!!

was there when you got 17, now where are you when i am getting 46? )': its harder than you know.

2009-05-28T04:46:00.000-07:00

hmm, after such a long time, i've decided to be emo no more and start adding happiness to my blog haha. claire say emo=not nice, i wonder who's the grouchy one now... stupid claire haha.

so anw! today was a happy day :) 3A,B and G went to the army museum and the S'pore discovery centre for the excursion! super cool haha. i think we got the coolest place of the three :) marina barrage and sungei buloh sounds really HOT haha. but i think the ppl who went to marina barrage have awesome pictures :D

we watched this super cool 4D movie. can see, can hear, can smell and can feel, i thought it was really special haha. never tried it before :) so after the excursion, we had pizzas for lunch! :D:D:D 3 cheers for the ppl who got A1 for ss, no you=no pizzas haha. and super nice feifei got me strawberry ice cream cone <3333333 hahaha, thanks jeremy!

I AM SO GLAD YOU CAME BACK FOR TRAINING! now training feels like training, and sec3 bonding feels like sec3 bonding :) must train real hard, cannot don't get top 4 next yearrrr!!!!!! and yingzzzzz, you'll always be the best GK in my heart, nobody's going to ever replace you! <3 stop saying you've given up or me and claire are going to kick the being out of you! haha AND good run dear claire :) somehow, things felt a little more special during training today, i'll be nice and you can safely say, we're friends on talking terms :D

today feels amazing. i am super happy! after feeling so emo for 21657867564567867 days, it feels great to tell claire and yingzzzz and serene and godcow, I FEEL HAPPY AGAIN! i promise you won't have to hear me sing again :) haha

dont let me down, i'll still be rooting you on, whether we're still talking or not :)

2009-05-27T06:45:00.001-07:00

dreams, dreams
of when we had just started things
dreams of you and me

it seems, it seems
that i can't shake those memories
i wonder if you have the same dreams too

the littlest things that take me there
i know it sounds lame but its so true
i know its not right but it seems unfair
that things are reminding me of you
sometime i wish we could just pretend
even if for only one weekend
so come on, tell me. is this the end?

2009-05-24T05:29:00.000-07:00

i am super frustrated VERY VERY FRUSTRATED. stupid jeremy AS USUAL, caused msn live messenger to be cocked up, NOW I CANNOT GO ONLINE!!!! it must be him, HE'S THE ONE ALWAYS USING THE COMPUTER!!!! i don't understand how someone can stay on the comp for more than 246769786456 hours each day and still watch tv and god knows wad and not do anything productive. DON'T YOU NEED TO STUDY?! I THINK I STUDY MORE THAN YOU. god knows wad is going to happen when the ps3 arrives. YOUR RESULTS=GG. and i will laugh my ass off and say, "serve you right you stupid boy. how many times have i reminded you. you deserve everything that is happening to you right now. START STUDYING YOU NOOBCAKE. STOP PLAYING THE COMPUTER AND RUINING EVERYTHING."

i know i have no right to say all these cos i only study abit everyday BUT I AM SAYING ALL THESE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD! WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND. YOU NEED TO BLOODY STUDY BEFORE YOU END UP LIKE A STUPID AIR HEAD. AND STOP SAYING BECAUSE YOU'RE HANDSOME YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH EVERYTHING, ITS NOT TRUE!! HOW CAN YOU EXPECT A GIRL TO MARRY SOMEONE WITHOUT BRAINS AND WITHOUT A STABLE INCOME IN FUTURE. GOOD RIDDANCE JEREMY PE, WAKE UP FROM THIS DREAM OF YOURS. and you're not that handsome to begin with!!!!

facebook or runescape or maple or dota or gunz is not going to bring you anywhere. stop playing all these ridiculous games. wad do you wna do in future?! who's going to marry you? don't you understand wad's most important for you? YOU CANNOT PLAY COMPUTER THE WHOLE DAYY!!! sec one only fail geog and hist, wad a noob. i sec one also not liddat!!!!!!!

STOP BEING A DICKHEAD AND START BEING A REAL MAN JEREMY PE. BEFORE I SMACK YOUR FREAKING EMPTY HEAD. I AM NOT GOING TO BE THERE ALL THE TIME TO CLEAR UP YOUR SHIT.

goodness me. i feel so much better. ARGH.

2009-05-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

maybe you're right

me=potential retainee

i feel like crap, i wna cry.. ): and cry and cry.

2009-05-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

if you ever feel depressed and wants to feel better, go on a quiz spree on facebook with your best friend :) you'll feel better, really. cos facebook give you stupid answers and haha, you're sure to laugh at them.

2009-05-15T04:46:00.000-07:00

i dunno wad the hell convinced me to promise to keep trying till i get it right the last time. i never expected it to be so disapointing, so sad, so hurtful and so... so fked up. waiting sucks, sucks more than anything else in the world and you should know that. trying is much harder than amath and i dunno how long more do i need to try. its getting so so frustrating and there's only so much i can take. feels damn silly but... i am still going to try, i have to

sorry claire ying clarice serene! ):

2009-04-25T05:50:00.001-07:00

omg omg omg, auston and weifa and dearest 3b!

ITS auston's weifa's and my DAY TMR HAHA! :):):):) can't wait. must vote kkkkkkk!

"..eh come pick me up k? 630! bu jian bu san :) we wear nice nice, you wear tux, me wear gown"
"okayy, we go by MRT! see you there!"
-.-!!!!!

2009-04-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

letting it all today made me feel alot better. i know wad i want now, like wad i really want. even if i am not going to do it for you, i know who i wna do it for. EAST ZONE TOP 4 2010 :D

for all of you, i'll go for trainings, be nice to coach and train as hard as i can. no matter how difficult it is, i will (:

2009-03-22T02:12:00.000-07:00

uncle law's farewell party at simpang! haha, okay, not exactly party but we had fun there and so i think you can consider that as a farewell party! we ate quite alot, took alot of pictures and talked alot. its kinda sad you're leaving us for 2 years but i hope you have fun and i wish you all the best in US!

our sakura date with yiyi! :D

alicia and kimberlyus <3kelly alicia and me i am into motorsports, are you? :D haha

us again..

kimberly! (:

kellyyyyyy

kimberly again!

TJC YOUTH OUTING!

our youth outing to east coast park was a very relaxing one, although i lost my way and had to walk 2467434676 km to find them, things went just as planned and thank god it didn't rain :D we played ice and water and laoying zhuo xiaoji and camwhored with fiona, becca and alicia :) we buried dawn MUAHAHAHA and tried to dunk ppl into the sea but most of the attempts were unsuccessful and i got dunked instead ):

haha, anw! i like walking alone i realised, although it makes you feel like a loner, you get to think about all the horrible stuff that happened recently and think about how to make yourself feel alot better. listening to the waves helped alot too. maybe not getting into U17 squad is alright, and not doing well for term one is alright too. things will work out eventually :D yeah!

<333333>

fiona's typical angry face hahathey say, "no wonder you guys are sisters haha"childhood friendssss <33333

fiona had sand in her eyes so she started rubbing and our "eyes got infected too"

lets hope things will get better. SIGH. why does it always work out on tv and in books but it never really work out in real life?

2009-03-07T07:25:00.000-08:00

i hate it when ppl can't make up their mind. tell you one thing now and tell you another thing the next minute. you don't get somebody's hope all high up just to shatter it the next minute, you indecisive bastard.

2009-02-28T01:01:00.001-08:00

my life sucks and i want everything to come to an end now. i am tired. so fking tired.

don't lose it, please don't lose it.

2009-01-23T05:33:00.000-08:00

you guys are the ppl who make me lose 100 calories a day laughing at the stupid things we say and the crazy stuff that we do. i love you all alot alot and you're the reason why school is still as fun as ever, also the reason why i look forward to netball trainings and the reason why i wna walk up to school everyday. <3

2009-01-23T04:31:00.000-08:00

17th January 1994

23 January 1994

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YOU TWO! ((:

2009-01-07T04:42:00.000-08:00

first post of 2009! haha, i am glad its finally twoohohnine.. 2008 was really hectic and it didn't really end very well.. but i am glad it finally ended! (: heh, anw!

cambodia mission trip was a whole lot of fun and i really enjoyed myself there.. (T'WAN!! HAHAHA) besides that, of course, we did really cool stuff like checking the villagers there and washing lice of the little children's hair.. managed to get my thoughts straightened out there too, many many terrible things happened in 2008 and i am glad i learnt cool stuff and realised that i am lucky enough to have something to eat and a computer to play with.. instead of bugs and twigs. i miss cambodia and all the time i spent with the fellow mission trippers! <3 i really do wna go back.

ADC! was fun too, was my best ever youth camp haha. the games were really cool and i really enjoyed myself, especially K-nite! all the crazy singing and dancing. hey, i think the camp comm did a great job (HAHA, i am in it too!) :D

school..... SIGH. 3B is definitely different from 2L and 1H but.. its only the first week so.. let's hope things get better. not being in the same class with sherwin really makes me feel so weird all over and having PE without him is depressing. now nobody's going to ask me wad i really wna do for PE and listen to my whining ): auston and jeremy are really nice though! :D

amanda: "没有人要跟我讲话了.. 我要跳楼.. lobbie 不在sherwin也不在.."
jeremy: "我会跟你一起跳楼, 我答应你!" (:
auston: "if you feel lonely or think nobody wna talk to you, me and jeremy will talk to you, promise, 我们是GANG!"

and.. the next paragraph is for you, yes you. i am sure you know its you (: if you think its you, call me haha.

i am sorry for making you feel so awkward, deciding whether to sit with them or to accompany me during recess. you probably don't know this but being my best friend for the last 2 years (still is!), i can read you like a book. and i know wad look you're thinking and wad look you're always giving. you can go sit with them next time haha, or you can do alternate days lol. i am fine with it really, i'll still love you! promise and you'll always always be my dearest dearest sweetheart AND. i'll miss you as a lab partner, a talk cock partner and someone who always tells me "tell me why i always entertain you and your stupid talk abt boring guys?" haha. I AM SURE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! (:

2008-12-14T04:20:00.000-08:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
lobbs sweetheart!

2. You relationship with Him/Her?
hmm, we USED to be BEST FRIENDS. hmph. HAHA. i'm her flabbbyyyyy! :D

3. Your 5 impression of Him/Her?
idiotic, stupid, horrible, annoying, LOVELY :D

4. The most memorable thing that He/She has done for you?
she threw herself on the road to save me from a rubbish truck... yeah right.

5. The most memorable thing that He/She has said to you?
hmm, "i'll be your boyfriend for today cos all the guys you meet are jerks. my 1st year is tmr anw, so you're mine and i'm yours for today." my goodness, how sweet is that? i miss you, fker. ):

6. If He/She becomes your LOVER, things He/She has to improve is?
her taste? i think she like fat ppl quite alot.. HAHA. like me and *ahem* I-N-F-L-U-E-N-C-E!!!! lol!

7. If He/She becomes your enemy, you will?
burn her alive and commit suicide. LOL.

8. What is the thing that you want to tell Him/Her now?
you are an idiot and i hate you for forgetting me for 2 WHOLE MONTHS. _l_ where are you and why haven't i see you in CENTURIES? ): don't you want me anymore? ): haha

9. Your overall impression of Him/Her.
NOOBCAKE hahahaha. you know i still love you babe <3

1o. How do think the person around you will feel about you?
AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH

11. The character you love of yourself is?
wad's not to love abt me? wad a stupid question.... -.- HAHA

12. On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
NO SHAME AT ALL HAHAHAHA

13. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Britney Spears LOL

14. For people(s) who cares & likes you, say something to them.
you know i love you too! ;)

lame shit _._ thanks ah lobbs.

2008-11-30T21:39:00.000-08:00

I HATE PARIS ):

2008-11-30T05:27:00.000-08:00

I AM HAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! :DDDDD
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY
I AM HAPPY!!!!

i got an email and YOU DON'T! I AM HAPPY :)))))

2008-11-23T06:31:00.000-08:00

FOURTEEN; ILTTMSPA. Beholders. says:
no, you just let your feelings blow you away

FOURTEEN; ILTTMSPA. Beholders. says:
you never really sit down and think before acting

-

why does that make so much sense? maybe its time i really sit down and starting thinking before i start doing all the nonsense i always do again... i am a horrible person.

2008-11-23T06:20:00.000-08:00

thank you so much for trying to help me shift my life ard (:

2008-11-21T05:14:00.000-08:00

Pictures from the fund raiser :D

Pictures from "The Journey" ! (:

- if i annoy you that much, then stop reading.

2008-11-18T21:38:00.000-08:00

i really should have known better.

2008-11-14T22:41:00.000-08:00

i am feeling really horrible now. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

7. PE JIA JUE AMANDA (F) S2-L CL C1 3B

they just don't sound right. 3B= no sherwin and lobbie. my life sucks.

2008-11-14T10:41:00.000-08:00

i am glad that we managed to straighten things out after 241657897354698 days but i can't help feeling horrible about it. ah, at least we talked abt it before things run out of hand. Zzz.

2008-11-11T22:49:00.000-08:00

i have lots and lots and lots and lots and lots of pictures to update for today (: enjoy!

we went to changing appetites to eat after the car wash and the food there is really good! (: they had this ultra HUGE mudpie and really good waffles! -

so... we had our Carwash fund raiser last Sunday for the mission trip this year and we had a great time washing, scrubbing, cleaning, drying all the cars! i'll let the pictures do the talking..

ian ian ian!

got our weapons and we're all set to go! (:

car wash group! (:

spastic shawn! (:

mossy smiles (:

the jaguarrrrrrr (cat HAHA)

scrubbing. cleaning. soaping..

ian says.. "you go away, i do it better!"

watch me!!!!hah! i can splash water and i do it really well! :D

me: i'll show you wad i can do. stand back!

shaun: eh, don't play don't play.. let me do it.

me: no!!!!!

we had our class chalet on the 5th of nov and although a few ppl didn't turn up, we had alot alot of fun! (:

haha, their "playing basketball" picture!

lobbie and j! (:

mashmallowyyyyyy.thought this photo was really cute!

bala the chef (:

best of both worlds <3>

his ever so wide smile :D

loving her sour hamburger gummies...

<333333333

chicken wings chicken wings!! <3lobbie and jasper (:

lobbie is extremely extra over here... AGAIN...

LEESHENG LEESHENG LEESHENG!! <333finally, a better one (:

"..liddat nicer, we take liddat k?"

" -.- no, i am not taking a picture with a hairy ball. "

"please?"

"fine, just one (: "

slackers...

ah, and my weird best friend <3

the really nice guys..

jasper's mouth was full but he agreed to take this picture anyway! (:

okay, enough pictures for the day. it took me so long just to upload all of these ): i am tired.

2008-10-26T21:07:00.000-07:00

LOOK HERE NATAAALIEEEE LOVELOVE! <33

HAHA, dearest natalie. netball wouldn't be as fun as it is without you and i love doing the hair smack to you! *piack* lol.

so, being in the same league team as you is totally AWESOME!! although you strongly object to our team name HAHAHA.. (D-NAT-YING!) but i knw you love it cos it gets you excited all the time!! okay okay nonsense aside... you are really amazing, being the best vice captain i've ever known in my entire life (settling all the admin stuff and making sure everybody knows when training is) but AHAHA, I AM GOING TO BE A BETTER VICE CAPTAIN THAN YOU!! especially when i have a wonderful co-vice, YEAH CLARICE!!! <3

thank you for being so supportive and for giving me a big hug whenever i get nervous and for ALWAYS ALWAYS saying "GO AMANDA PE!!! LIFT LIFT LIFT!!" when i miss a shot.

so everytime i get a shot, its for you, dearest <3

-

haha i think i'm in love with TROY <33 ah, i want his precious brass door knob (:

2008-10-26T05:03:00.000-07:00

i am the most retarded person on EARTH and i seriously don't know how i got influenced by you when i am supposed to influence you. i really regretted wad i did and i am glad i apologised. sean's right, i got alot to learn. ah,i hate regret.

i am never gna be influenced by you, blandon wong. ITS YOUR TURN...... to stop smoking, suckerrrrrrr.

2008-10-24T14:49:00.000-07:00

2008-10-24T14:40:00.000-07:00

ytd was the last day of school and i huggedddddd dearest lobs!

"... hugged flabby today(couldn't get my arms around. HAHAHAHA), and she was complaining about how it is the end of school term alr...", says http://www.passionshot.blogspot.com/

so, this school year has been really awesome! okay, maybe sad sometimes when lobbie and sherwin have to pang seh me for their matches ): but they are my favourite-est-est ppl in the entire world and its really difficult to get angry with them sometimes, nono, scratch that, ALL THE TIME. i am so going to miss them. especially lobbie cos her training isn't on tuesdays and thursdays )))): bet you're going to miss my cookies!! (although you pretend you don't want them all the time and when i give it to you, you tell boh that its the best cookies EVER.) i heard you lobs, don't try to deny :D

so, this year wouldn't be as amazing as it is without sherwin, lobbie and jeremy. and i really thank you for being an awesome part of my life (:

to lobs:
although you alway pang seh me for boh but i know you love me! you said so yourself!

"Although i hardly say this, i really do love you!" HAHAHAHA! i know you do (;

thank you for everything, for scolding me when i talk to the ppl that i am not supposed to, for being there for me, for writing 2 very very sweet letters to me, for always remembering to get me my favourite drink (hey, you're the only one that remembers wad it is...), for calling me flabbyy (this is weird but i'm used to it and i like it HAHAH), for always making me decide wad we are going eat for recess (this is really annoying) and for eating my cookies (:

i'll still make cookies for you during the holidays and i'll specially come to ah just to find you! :D haha, weird but, i love you lobbs! and hey, my bangs are adorable k!

next year is going to be really different without you and i really really hope we will be in the same class next year. yupp yupp, you light up my life <3

to sherwin:
hah, you're the worst person in the world but you're one of my favourite! :D

thank you for ALWAYS being there and for not getting angry with me when i do really stupid stuff just cos i ask you not to. thank you for being so patient when i am in the "time of the month" and treat everybody like crap, including you. thank you for always listening to me when i blabber and talk nonsense and when you're busy studying at home and i feel really horrible, i call you and you still pick the phone up and talk to me till i'm feeling better. thank you for listening and laughing and not getting mad whenever i say, "you don't want me alr lor, you only want your amanda foo. you stupid got-girlfriend-then-don't-want-your-very-pretty-and-lovely-best-friend idiot" although you annoy me sometimes, its really difficult to not talk to you for more than 6 hours.

"BEST FRIENDS CANNOT GET ANGRY WITH EACH OTHER ONE.... ):"
"i know, BFF, im not angry anymore k? (:"

i'm going to miss you best friend. i hope we'll be in the same class next year! (: and you.... light up my life too! <3

to jeremy:
thank you for always being there for me during malay lessons! malay lessons are really terrible but sitting next to you makes it alot better! (:

thank you for answering me when i ask stupid questions and for telling me the things i am not supposed to. thank you for always being so happy when i give you cookies and write you cards and for telling me you really appreciate them. although you laugh and say, "amanda, ni zhen de hen fan..." all the time, you still care for me (hahaha i know this cos sherwin told me!). thank you for being part of SALJ! <3

you.... are the most patient favourite person in the entire world. (:

this post is getting so long winded so i'll end here.

2008-10-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

and how can you call someone a special name that you've called somebody else for 2 years?

new coach came ytd and it felt sooooo so so weird to call her 'coach'. new rules, new drills and new game play. its going to take a long time for me to get used to her. i don't like change........... )):

"...and honestly it really doesnt matter anymore.."

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

i miss you ):

2008-10-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

http://www.ccktjc-adc2008.blogspot.com please please please click this. i'll be eternally grateful and you'll be blessed! (: thank you!

2008-10-18T07:40:00.000-07:00

ju, becca, fio, cia, me and sam!

lyd! <3

[found all these pictures on lyd's multiply. (taken long ago)]

went to church ytd to help lyd with the p6 camp 'FROM CRAYONS TO PERFUME'. although the camp wasn't for me, i felt really blessed (: talking to sam, mossy and jeremy (sam's friend!) totally helped alot! we took many many pictures (i'll post them soon!) and shared alot on our very weird love lives. jesu was really nice too, he bought me a cup of bubble tea and said, "feel blessed eh? a refreshing drink after your sports performance!" yupp, so blessed (:

after talking to them, i realised that i don't like the things i am doing now. and i really want to travel back to 2-4 years ago and hopefully, i'll make wiser choices! i'll say the things i need to say and take back the things i wasn't supposed to say. i'll do the right things and i'll be more appreciative of the things ppl did for me and not take them for granted. i thought abt sean and i realised wad an idiot i've been. i know its too late to do or say anything but i am really sorry.

i dunno how all these stupid thoughts came and why i am feeling so horrible now. i think it was because lyd asked me if i was okay 987856677754445889675 times.

lyd: are you okay?

me: hell yeah! you've been asking me that so many times! wad's wrong?

lyd: i dunno, have this feeling that something is wrong with you and something is bothering you

me: don't worry, i am fine.

lyd: sure? come to me if you need anything, i'll be there. YOU SURE?

me: YES DEAR, thanks anyway.

i finally figured out what went wrong. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

whatever it is, i really thank god for all the really sweet ppl he sent to make me feel alot better. family, friends and even random ppl! thank you sam, mossy and jeremy! ((((((: and hey mossy, i know you're afraid of the dark! i'll tell you how! it was 1 in the morning and we were still in the chapel talking and playing then mossy said he wanted to go to the chapel office (at the basement!) to get his stuff and the sleeping bags.

mossy: eh, you wna follow me down to the chapel office?

me: no, i don't like dark dark. just now lyd say all the lights she off alr.

mossy: mmmm, please?

sam: (turns towards us) wad?

me: mossy's scared! HAHAHAHAHA.

sam: HAHAHHA. amossss...................

mossy: eh, please! just follow me down lah!

me: fine................... HAHAHAHAHAHA, you scared right!!!

mossy: i need you to help me take thing!

me: okok. i'll go! (: but... i know you're scared!

mossy: fine..... let's go.

okay, i'll end here. hey silly pickle, don't stress!! (:

2008-10-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

leesheng is such a sweetheart for saying my bangs look very cute (:

jing(L) said it too. so did V! and Khanliang (L) too! almost all the netballers said it and i am happy (: okay, maybe only a little bit happy ): a little bit only.

and dearest jing, i am so so so grateful <3

2008-10-14T06:49:00.001-07:00

its been so long since i had so much fun with the netballers! these two days were really awesome! i like mini olympics (: captain's ball was really funny since we thrashed Girl Guides and NPCC and we thought we will kick everybody else's ass but we lost to basketball anyway so HAHA. i hope your boobs are alright now, cheryl boh dear! i am so sorry!

field relay was really really fun too! but i am lazy to type out all the silly details. i do wna talk abt cheerleading though! we had less than 10 minutes to come out with a cheer and compete with the other CCAs and we came out with something really cool and we got third!!!!! (: wahh, super exciting.

D asked me if i ever regretted coming into Anglican High and i haven't replied him, so.... hey D! nope, i don't regret coming into AH, and i'm glad i met you too! (:

NETBALLERS ON TOP, NETBALLERS ROCK! ((((((((((((((:

2008-10-09T23:33:00.000-07:00

i am so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

maybe i'll feel better if you're willing to give me your precious brass door knob.

2008-10-02T02:59:00.000-07:00

I AM SO FKING PISSED OFF AND FRUSTRATED. i wanna kill somebody.

well, at least there's something i really like doing now. but i have to stop soon cos i wont have my handphone with me till the 10th of october (YEAH! just in time for jasper's and adam's birthday msg!) ah, this sucks. i cannot imagine wadd's going to happen now ): i am thinking of..................

g.

oh my, i am such a sucker. forgive me.

2008-10-02T02:44:00.000-07:00

you probably have nothing better to do and i am really pissed off with you now. there's a reason why leesheng said....

YOU SUCK. yupp, you.
skhvkshvihfdiuvdfiyvieuygvuieyhsfuckoffkjxkjvcosoiudvsvdifhvoidfv'

2008-09-05T07:53:00.000-07:00

i got pictures i got pictures!!

INFARED!! (:
lyd, me and sis! <3
sam me and pen! (((:
there's something about the blue cone. hmmm.

auston!! (:

-

biaojie decided to treat us to a meal at Shokudo yesterday and we had a great time catching up and eating (: we also took many pictures at the restaurant because nobody was there. the food was great! and AND THEY HAD A NEOPRINT MACHINE IN THE RESTAURANT! how cool can a restaurant get?! okay maybe i am a noob but i still think that place is superrrrr cool! (:

our acting cool shot. (i tried really hard k!)

the er-jies unite! :DD
me, biaojie, tingting, xiangbing and sis! (:

retarded shot

another of our retarded shot! (:

Supper on weds! Supper on Weds was totally great, we talked alot and i realised that all of us lovessssssss chicken wings! and took retarded pictures and its about time we realise wad a big boy (oh no, MAN!) samuel has changed into. and oh, samuel is still very nice! (:

supperrrr
singing with dearest samuel! <3

i loveeeeeee zigu! (:
us :D

we celebrated kelly's 6th birthday last saturday and we took many pictures. been a while since we caught up with each other so we decided to have supper on weds! :D

sis and a very retarded me behind. LOL!
jeslyn (:

retarded :S
jeslyn <3
soooo very cute! (:
wad a bum... ):
jeslyn and sis!

that's all the pictures for today ): GOODNIGHT! (:

2008-08-31T22:26:00.000-07:00

i am soooooooooooooooo grateful to khanliang, lobbie, sherwin, kelyn, auston, bala and xiaobai for coming! (: i hope you really enjoyed the wargames! and to khanliang, sherwin and lobbie, i am soooo proud you controlled yourself (((((((((:

wargames 2 was cool, although the commitee were extremely dishearted at the start. service ended late, we didn't have enough time to do our stuff ): and the beginning just dragged too long. but i think the commando game was really fun! we had to cancel some of our games too ): medics, hostage, trapped in a building but argh, at least we managed to play some of our really cool games. for those who didn't have fun, we're really sorry you didn't, planning was horrible (the commitee knows) and everything just didn't turn out the way we expected it to be ): oh wells, but we really wanna thank god for stopping the rain and for ALL the people who came :D

and i got to do a SLAAAAAAAM DUNK! :D yeah! i'll upload the pictures soon (:

and now, we know very well that it was supposed to end. whether we ended it well or not, it doesn't matter because, we ended it. we really had to.

2008-08-29T02:51:00.001-07:00

I AM A MASTERPIECE. suck that, spammers. i can't get everybody to like me, and i am sure you can't too because I DON'T THINK I LIKE YOU.

no, scratch that, I DON'T LIKE YOU.

2008-08-22T07:10:00.000-07:00

thank you my dearest natalie for helping me to chaaaassee my flu away! (:

walking down from school with clarice, claire and serene is always awesome. we just laugh all the time and today, MY DEAREST GODCOW (clarice) decided to tell us a joke.

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CLARICE: have you heard about the butter joke?

SERENE, CLAIRE AND ME: no?

CLARICE: no, i don't wanna tell you, later you all will anyhow SPREAD.

SERENE: *laughs like a crazy woman (as always)

CLAIRE and ME: wad? we don't get it......

CLARICE AND SERENE: AS IN SPREAD? BUTTER SPREAD? HAHAHAHAA, YOU LAGGERS.

ME: AHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHHAAHHAAH that was funny.

CLAIRE: wad?! I STILL DON'T GET IT!

SERENE, CLARICE and ME: -.- butter.... spread...... -.-!!!

CLAIRE: oh!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH, that was really funny!!!!!

claire lew sook fui, you're a fat lagger, i swear. but you're still really really cool (:

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and there was another...

CLARICE: have you guys heard the vaccum joke?

THREE of US: noooooo.....

CLARICE: really... aiyah then nvm.. the joke sucks

SERENE: *laughs really crazily

CLAIRE: WAD?! IS THAT THE JOKE? IT SUCKS? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

ME: shit, i am slow this time. but AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. this is funny! funnier than the butter one. LOL

10 seconds later......

CLAIRE: HUH? YOU MEAN THE 'IT SUCKS' IS REALLY THE JOKE? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THIS IS SO LAME!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

SERENE: i thought amanda was slow but?! you're even slower.

ME and CLARICE: *laughs at claire

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they're probably the only reason why i still look so happy after the end of a long training day. i love you all (:

2008-08-21T05:08:00.000-07:00

Now I'm sitting here,
like we used to do
I think about my life and how now there's nothing I won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you

2008-08-11T03:04:00.001-07:00

getting worse worse worse. and i wonder why.

2008-08-09T09:40:00.000-07:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! (:

had ndp yesterday and it was fun, although it was really really hot. ): the skipping item was great! GO KELYN! :D the tree planting ceremony was horrible though. khanliang got angry. and its strange, to hear him say things that someone else used to say. maybe there really is something wrong with me. ): sigh..

met kelyn and joseph and went to eat at yoshinoya and kelyn thought since we're eating jap food, we should go get some takoyaki too! we ordered prawn takoyaki with more mayo.

ME: sometimes when i request for more mayo, they give me that look. like the look of "I KNOW WHY YOU'RE THIS FAT. BECAUSE YOU ASK FOR MORE MAYO AND MAYO IS FATTENING." and that look totally sucks you know.

JOSEPH AND KELYN: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHA

KELYN: you're not fat lah damn it! but its funny. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

was supposed to watch dark knight with joseph because the both of us haven't watch it yet but decided against it cos it felt weird. to watch a movie with joseph. went home anyway and decided to meet the guys for a movie.

so.... i met khanliang (not angry anymore, YAY!), bala, auston, sherwin, zhisen, sikai ge, xiaohei and khairui at tampines at 7.00PM with jediah and we had a hard time deciding on the movie. wanted to watch MUMMY but sikai ge watched it already, journey to the centre of the earth was too late, dark knight, ALL OF THEM WATCH ALREADY ): so we watched this secret movie. not supposed to tell! ): movie ended ard 11 and i had to rush home. zhisen was nice and sent me and jediah back home (: thanks sen! and a message from a certain someone managed to make me feel alot alot better! <3

i'll end here, today was just crappy and its all coming back now. the thoughts, the stomachache, the heartache ): goodnight.

2008-08-09T09:20:00.000-07:00

i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing. i'm losing.

and i wonder. is what you said true? ):

2008-08-08T01:29:00.000-07:00

i am beginning to miss every single little thing we used to do together as kids. playing catching, stealing each other's siew mai. waiting for grandma to call us for tea time. acting as teachers, playing the family game, pretending to be power rangers. we used to have much fun together. i don't wanna grow up. ):

2008-08-04T02:51:00.000-07:00

went to help steph with the children's party on saturday after my 2.4 and we had loads of fun, although the children were rather..... irritating. zzzzzzzz

group pic!
their very sucessful junpshot!
jumpshot again!
jumpshot jumpshot jumpshot!
my shifu!

yien!
jes and partner (:
dodo and partner!
me and sis

vel and partner

chicken
jes's steak
me, haha
steak steak steak
steak steak! ((:
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we had our 2.4km run on saturday and after running (not so fast), we went to hang out at bk! and i got lots of pictures (:

a very very nice ziheng and lobbie's being extra.
sherwin and his beloved.
weijie!
xiaohei!

loveslovesloves<33333333333333333 href="http://bp1.blogger.com/_Oh_rZWknskk/SJbaPmUrvuI/AAAAAAAAAUo/qZg3s6gd0Ho/s1600-h/lobs,+me+(=.JPG"> BFF!! <333333 href="http://bp3.blogger.com/_Oh_rZWknskk/SJbaP2PcncI/AAAAAAAAAUw/iuf-MtjvvUQ/s1600-h/ls,kc,sp.JPG"> leesheng, k-chuen and SP. handphone games addicts, TSK TSK
my best fat friend! ((:
jeremyquah refuses to show his smile ):

walking.. walking.. walking... to bk!
wad they ALWAYS do
a very weird best friend. HAHA
haha, we were trying to take a very sweet picture of sherwin and amandaFOO but they didn't want us to, so i had to pretend i was taking a picture of lobbie.
happily eating (:

auston says, "oii!! haha"
auston says, "but i cannot smile!"
auston says, "my stomach very pain" ):

my big daddy (: balalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Festival of praise is amazing! i swear i'll go every year (: parachute band was great and reuben morgan was better! i had a great time there and i think the rest of them did too, YAY! and for those who missed it, there's always next year :D 31st july, 1,2 august 2009

while waiting......

WE WERE AT FOP! ((((:

amos and shawn, wating for the door to open

NICOLE!<3>
(:

bel and me! <3

zigaa + leeying + me (:

last sunday was CCK 22nd anniversary, we had loads of fun and the food was pretty good (: i'll let the pictures do the talking!

(:
Jeremiah
OUR YOUTH TABLE! (:
another youth table

the other youth table

<3333333333333! href="http://bp3.blogger.com/_Oh_rZWknskk/SJbRxxzQgYI/AAAAAAAAAQQ/DiaDZC6WdUc/s1600-h/another+youth+table.JPG"> the other other youth table
Blandon
the kids item! Sean

2008-08-01T00:05:00.000-07:00

its amazing how sherwin can always make all the guys sound like jerks and in the process, making me feel alot better. sherwin isn't exactly awesome but he is my best (guy)friend (:

2008-07-28T06:39:00.000-07:00

i went out with serene, tanying and claire today! to celebrate tanying's birthday (: i like hanging out with them, makes me feel happy. i think i laugh alot when i am with them, and when i am with Sherwin, lobs, Jeremy and bala too (:

so anyway, jediah knocked his head when he was playing in school today and he has a fever now ): i hope nothing happens to him *cross fingers.

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i went out with kelyn, joseph and bala on saturday, went over to novena to look at some adidas stuff. and i saw a bag i really really like but its $213! )): after all the whining, we went to NUM to get kelyn's top, and we decided to go for supper! and joseph can really eat!!!!!!!!! we were having lots of fun but it was late and we all had to go home. so, we agreed to meet every saturday night for supper and we called ourselves the SUPPER BUDDIES! (: YAYEEE!

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i hate thinking about you, makes me have that feeling. you look like you're doing better than me. well, at least the clinging on is gone, hope you're finally happy (: I REALLY DO NEED TO FIND SOMETHING TO DO, LIKE STUDY.

2008-07-28T06:18:00.000-07:00

i have so many pictures to post, too lazyto post all of them. will post them when i am feeling much much better, sigh

2008-07-28T06:12:00.000-07:00

SALJ! we have a special name for it but i don't think its right for me to say it here, haha. after self study (:
my tiramisu "cake"! (:

2008-07-25T06:31:00.001-07:00

i had a horrible week ): ANYWAY!

the guys got east zone champs! YAYYYEEE! and the girls got 2nd! (: and we took some pictures together after prize giving, i just don't have them with me now ): they refuse to send it to me!

ME: eh, later send me the photos okay?

Jasper: no, don't want don't want! I WILL SELL IT TO YOU!! cos i know you really want it. *insert big smiles

ME: you are such a big bastard, i swear. i will ask somebody else.

i couldn't find anybody else, and now i don't have the pictures ): sigh

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i will fight all the pain monsters for you dearest!! (:

2008-07-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

did i tell you how much i wanna have a tongue piercing? i'll tell you now.

i want it so badly. so so so so badly.

2008-07-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!! BLOGGER FINALLY GAVE IN, NOW I HAVE PICTURES!!!!

becca, me, fiona and sis! <33

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anyway, serene, tanying and claire brought me out to eat on tuesday! (: so here are the pictures.

ice cream makes me happy (:
claire was telling me the disgusting stuff found inside is all my fault ):

serene and tanying! (:
me and claire! (:

i was trying to be lame, AS ALWAYS.

tanying loved the egg so much she wanted to bring it home, she said, "the egg shape so nice, so unique!!"
me and serene! (:
CLAIRE! (:
WE HAD A CAT FIGHT ):

that greedy pig had alot of dessert (:

us! (:

we love playing with chopsticks! :D

i have no idea wad the 2 of them were doing!

that's all the pictures i've got. i'll post more if i find them (: goodnight

2008-07-19T08:12:00.000-07:00

WHY CAN'T I POST PICTURES? I AM VERY FRUSTRATED WITH BLOGGER NOW ):

2008-07-18T07:09:00.000-07:00

when i come undone,
you bring me back again.
back under the stars,
back into your arms.

2008-07-14T05:08:00.000-07:00

matt is damn weird, i swear.

matthew says:
are you the one in blue?

and my heart burns for you. says:
no, i am the one in grey. the left one

matthew says:
don't bluff! i can't seem to remember you looking like that. then again, i haven't seen you for 3 whole years.

and my heart burns for you. says:
that's true. but i swear i am the one in grey.

matthew says:
no you are not!

and my heart burns for you. says:
I AM, MATT, I AM THE ONE IN GREY. AND I'VE GOT MY DIMPLES TO PROVE IT TO YOU!!!!!

matthew says:
really? your pictures on friendster doesn't even look you, 3 years ago. wait... i forgot how you looked like...

and my heart burns for you. says:
-.- and you insist the pictures don't look me! ):

five minutes later....

matther says:
okay, i've seen the dimples and THEY ARE YOU!!!! :)

and my heart burns for you. says:
FINALLY! (:

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we had to change places today and i used to hate changing places. but this time, it was fine! i am sitting next to shayln now and she's nice. on my other side is leesheng so i am extremely happy! (: its nice to hear him shout for joy when he heard i was still going to sit around him. he made me stay on my seat to talk to him when i was about to go and talk to lobbie, sherwin and jeremy, they are all sitting at the other end of the classroom ):

and small shaun doesn't wanna be called small shaun anymore. he says its depressing for someone younger than him to call him small shaun so from now onwards, ENORMOUS SHAUN is small shaun! (: and he say he will call me small amanda which is weird cos i am far from small. ): and he says he is going to give me his smile, its part of my birthday present :D

3 more days! (:

2040hrs

2008-07-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

i am being blocked and you have no idea how much that sucks.

i've never felt stupid-er in my life. wad a bad ending. now, go to hell. _l_

2008-07-08T05:43:00.000-07:00

you're right, sis. why do i even bother?

i don't wanna bother, i really don't wanna. i can't help it ): i am so frustrated i swear i can just throw tables and chairs at everybody. and i wish i can be as can't-be-bothered as you.

why isn't my stomach huring anymore? )): because something else is hurting more than my stomach, and that sucks ): i miss you.

and i'll try to make things right once more, please.

2008-07-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

i feel refreshed! (:

talking to lobbie helped and so did jasper! i haven't talked to jasper liddat for a while it was cool and he said i was the first girl he can actually talk to, like talk to talk to! i am happy! ((: and training was a whole lotta fun! I AM SOOOOOOOOO GOING TO SWENSENS!!!!!!! haha.
lobbie thinks i am chi qing, and i have to find out wad that means. she got me mixed up with the whole hua chi and chi qing thing. ):

sigh............................................................................................ i feel so so so so so so different, and i don't want to feel different. please?

2008-07-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

saturday and sunday was really really great! (: i loved it, being with the youth and all.

so anyway, on sat, after youth service, all of us wanted to watch a movie but we decided it was too late so we agreed to watch on sunday instead.

on sunday, after the study session (and the ad we decided to do), we went to cathay to watch wanted! me and shaun had to sneak in and we were really nervous. shaun had this face of i-dont-know-how-to-say before we went in. it was hilarious! when we finally passed the ticket tearing, i started laughing non-stop!

amanda: hahahahahahhahahahahhaah
shaun: stop laughing!!
amanda: i cannot stop!!!
shaun: hahahahahaha

and before we went in to the theatre, there was a sign that says,
"NC 16

NO ENTRY FOR CHILDREN BELOW 16"

amanda: oi shaun, you cannot go in, haha. you're only 15!
shaun: you also hor!!! and you're only 14!!!!
and we laughed and went into the theatre. small shaun so cute! (:

i LOVE TJC! (:
'oh Lord, your tenderness, melting all my bitterness.
your loveliness, taking all my ugliness.'

2008-06-29T06:34:00.000-07:00

should have listened to lydia and the rest of the girls. earlier.

i hope something extremely bad happens to my tummy and i can die from it. please. *cross fingers

2008-06-27T23:42:00.000-07:00

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
hahah. u get emotional at night, i realise

and my heart burns for you (: says:
sometimes, i pretend to be happy in the day too much, i don't even know if i am happy or not

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
yeah, sometimes its like that but then maybe because in the day theres alot of people to talk to and that occupies your mind

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
then when at night ... u start thinking alot.

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
hahah, nvm we will accept ur random stuff and i'm also happy to have u as a friend

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
but anyway u need a place to like express ur emotions if u're sad

CLAIRE, Singapore is freaking hot says:
not u will not be happy, and then like our handphones are ur SOS

you've been a great help, dear claire (: thank you

2008-06-27T20:10:00.000-07:00

it was nice talking to kelyn at the stadium today, at least i know someone feels the way i do (: thanks kelyn, and for the movie too! had a greaaaaat time with you :D

and we need to have a talk. ): i hate this part.

2008-06-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

life sucks.

and yes lobs, i'm as stupid as can be.

release me.

2008-04-08T16:00:00.000-07:00

i love this picture <3 ahs netball court.

2008-02-14T21:43:00.000-08:00

mr gey sucks.

so does somebody else

2007-11-14T17:33:00.000-08:00

i'm troubled. and i need somebody to tell me what's going on. i don't wanna lie ):

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! i made oreo cheesecake for you, even though you're a stranger staying in my house. happy 40th birthday.

i need somebody to save me.

2007-10-25T22:18:00.000-07:00

if only i could turn back time, i'll make sure i do the right things. haiyah, no use crying over spilled milk.

no, jasper, guess we will all have to say bye. i'm gonna miss 1h, and i don't wanna leave you guys )': you guys make my life, and you all make school a better place. i'm gonna miss all the laughter and all the smiles, and all the stupid jokes we make and the way we make fun of each other. and, aiyah, i am going to miss you guys. and before i leave, i just wanna say, no matter wad happens, i love you guys (: i'm gonna kiss lob and pok tmr. and kelyn, cihui, geraldine and everybody that i wanna kiss. that includes you.

and yes zhisen, nobody is going to seperate 1h'07 :D cheer up jas!

2007-10-25T21:52:00.000-07:00

god will make a way. and i know that no matter what happens, i'll have you by my side (: thank you lord (:

i can do all things through christ who strengthens me :D

2007-10-24T17:57:00.000-07:00

i am sad ):

anyway, enterprise day was fun, although somebody ruined my morning. oh wells. so, after assembly, bala, elton and me went to decorate the space they gave us and the name of our hamburger shop is called, "CRAPPY PATTIES!". i came up with the name :D

i managed to sell the burgers!! i begged like crap for them to buy then when all our burgers ran out, we sold our bottles of chilli and tomato sauce and napkins and packets of chilli sauce from macs. haha. i sold a bottle of tomato sauce to ian! and he bought it for like $2.50 (: and yupp. lobbie and jing did a really great job preparing the patties and not forgetting jinda and jasper! they went to grab customers. and jeremy and pok for helping us to take milo. thank you. and to boh and xinqing for helping out too. and bala and elton for helping out with the decorations. andandand to sengaik for offering his kiss to whoever who bought the burgers from us :D and to all the people who bought all the stuff from us. and to our sec 3 seniors, tengrui paid 50cents more for the burger and kenneth gave me $1 and ian for buying a lot of stuff from us and cihui and liangkai and my sister for delivering the cocktail to us (: and to some of the sec 3s, for buying the tissues and the chilli sauce from us. thank you (:

i wanna have another enterprise day. haha. its going to be the end of school for 2007. )): i like 1h'07 (:

and, i think i love you.

2007-10-01T16:45:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i blogged. i'm at jingjing's house! (: and her house is really huge! not like i haven't been here before but i get amazed everytime i'm here haha. and i know weijie gets excited when he sees the flying tinklebell in her room! (; haha. and its not just excited, but very very excited. so excited he wants to keep the whole thing flying when we're studying. aiyo.

so, the EOYs are coming )): and i'm still not in a stuydying mood ): argh. but yeah, i'm trying. finished all my math homework :D i'm so proud of myself.

okay, we're going back to studying (: yeah!

i miss doing something. ):

2007-08-19T20:16:00.000-07:00

i am sad ):

and i am going to do...

something beyond your wildest imagination.